GRRRRR!!

So, there is a long story - but I'm just keeping this really short.  

We went to the RE today.  It started pretty good, just discussing all the details and my full medical history.  He talked about our options and what type of drug protocol he wants me to begin.  He doesn't want me to be on "full-blown" injectables because of my PCOS in fear that I might stim too quickly.  He would like me to start with a Femara/Gonal-F cycle with IUI.  I'm okay with that now (after a couple of my girls have given positive feedback on it!).   

Then he turned the discussion onto Mike and his worsening s/a results.  He said that he was quite concerned about not only his count but also his motility.  He said that the wash can make it a little better, but 30% just wasn't good enough.  He also said that hospital labs aren't used to running s/a's for fertility reasons and because of that, they tend to "over estimate" the # of actual sperm.  That would mean that Mike has an even lower count that what we think.  Well, he put Mike on 3 different things to help his count and we will go from there.  He wants him to wait 2-3 months before getting another s/a to see if they are increased.  

Then we started talking about me again and he said that I needed to lose weight before we started as well.  This is where I was so mad I almost turned my mind off.  I was just trying not to lose it (start crying like a big baby) in the office.  He would like me to lose (ideally) 15-20lbs.  I have PCOS - it's not that damn easy.  But whatever.  He's the doc and he did make a lot of valid points.  I talked to Mike about it and he said that we will go back in 2 months regardless and if he still doesn't want to start the cycle, then we will get a second opinion.  I'm happy with that.  So now we're looking at starting everything up in late Oct/early Nov.  UGH!  

So, if I'm grumpy the next couple months... it's not because I hate you - it's because I'm freaking hungry because I'm about to starve myself to lose this freaking weight!  Okay, not really "starve" but pretty darn near close.